I can type. I can write and I can think. Yet I’m extremely reluctant to create any worthwhile sites. What is it that actually stops me from doing anything productive? I seem to shy away from success every time it rears its head.
To be honest, I don’t really know what I want from life. Should I actually be striving for something? If so, what and why? Ill meet next months targets, but come March 30th, Ill still be miserable. Ill still be striving for THAT something. It’ll never come or at least when it does it’ll buried under next months grand plan which will inevitably collapse on its ass.
I just don’t get the whole blogging thing really to me its incredibly incestous and the thought of having to lower myself anymore makes me sick to the stomach. I want to do it my way and if that means staying in the little league then I’m perfectly fine with that.
I cant really be assed with the whole business of building a brand or a positive reputation. I just want to get out of here and experience things that I haven’t ever done before. It isn’t about a love for the industry or anything, its just a tool for survival. I’m semi competent with the computer and I’m looking for something else, as many of you are. I just want freedom. I don’t wanna exchange one paymaster for another.
I do like blogging here, but I cant be anything other than I am and that’s really a lazy incompetent asshole. Its my particular niche and its served me well over the last 23 years.